Just went to my aunt blog.
Read about my grandpa condition.
I'm sad about his condition now, if i can chose... ...
I will chose to take his illness and make him healthy like before.
But i can't.
Would it be better if he just go off?
I know, i can't bear to see him leaving us, but he's suffering now.
Will he get a better life if he leave us?
Without any suffering?
Without going through any chemotharapy?
Without him coughing?
Grandpa used to be a smoker for a very long period of time.
He adviced me, not to smoke... ...
Grandpa, i'll try not to smoke!
I will try to quit smoking... ...
Wanted to visit my grandpa on last saturday, but i fall sick.
Grandpa!
I miss you!
I didn't see you for 10 days already!
Last last Sunday i saw you, with you swollen arm.
I held your hand, and i even ask, why your hand so swollen?
I hope, i didn't hurt you.
I wanna visit you!
I wanna go eat carrot cake with you!
I want you to bring me to school!
I want you to fetch me back from school no matter rain or shine!
Grandpa, i miss those days i stay at your house!
Grandpa, i really want you to be with me forever!
I miss those days when you bring the cane downstair to chase us up from the playground!
I miss those days when you bring me to kindergarten and buy me sweets!
GRANDPA!
I MISS THOSE DAYS WHEN YOU WERE HEALTHY!
FUCK EVERYTHING ELSE!
I WANT NOTHING ELSE!
I ONLY WANT YOU AND GRANDMA TO BE WITH ME FOREVER AND STAY HEALTHY!!!!
外公 , 外婆 我爱你 .❤