★ tudigua 土地瓜 ★

2011-10-22T20:54:00.002+08:00

No one will ever understand how i feels,
i may look happy, but im not at all happy.
Really very stress and fuck up with my life.
This isnt the type of life i wanted.
Everything changed a lot.
Too much at a go.
Problems with teachers, friends, family.
Grandma gonna go for operation soon. ):
Received warning letter, kick out from competition and called parents down in school.
Friends, never ending problems.
When is all this shit going to end?
i damn tired already.
Broke down in school yesterday, cried so hard in front of wx. ):
Went to haw par villa today, really fucking shag.
Everything seems to be playing in my mind all over again.
Sitting down at the table, play true or dare.
Spamming photos in the toilet.
Really a lot of things we did together.
I thought i let everything go already.
But in fact, i havent.
Im still brooding so much over it.
Sick and tired of all this already.
When will all this end?
Can i get to refresh my mind and let all this memory leave at once?
Everything together.
This is a very big blow, i cant take it.
Im a loser.
HAISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!
FUCK MY LIFE!!! KNNBCCB!! )(*&%^$#%$^%^*()$*@!&^RF!G
ARGHSSSS!!!

2011-09-14T20:30:00.002+08:00

What i could do now is wish all of you the best in your studies and in your future endeavours.
Good luck in your N and O.
Hope you guys study hard and get the best for your results and get into the course you all want.
I'll be here whenever you guys need me.
I'll be looking at your from far apart.
I'll still be the same old wei ting you all know.
Thanks for being there whenever i need you guys.
Having you guys in my life is the best part i ever had!
Thanks a lot.
Really love and miss you all!!
GOOD LUCK MY DEAR!

2011-09-14T20:01:00.002+08:00

10 of us, all of you mean a thing to me...
But the 4 of you, mean the most to me.
And there's only 1 left here being with me...

1: You had be the one i ever trusted so much for. The one i first did so much for a friend. I don't mind sacrificing all this for you. I miss you so much as a friend. We did a lot of nonsensical things together, we did funny things. We sneaked out during midnight and had fun. I miss prawning, cycling, pool, sun tanning, KTV, slacking and a lot more things i did with you. Among all, you meant the most to me. You're the one i need, the one i hope to be there for me whenever i am down. Before we started this 10 people, there was only the 2 of us. Yeah, i regretted mixing with all of them. I'm selfish... Yes, the reason why i don't wanna mix together is because you tend to leave me out more often. I really miss you alot.. I had things are all fine for you now.. Hope you remember those things i did for you, and i hope you remember and keep all those things i told you in heart.. I love you and miss you bro...

2: Nothing much to say about you. I'm only left with you now. Even though things wasn't as stable as it was before. We quarrel more often now. We ain't meeting up as much as before. But thanks for being there whenever i needed you to be around. I love you and miss you sis...

3: You always shared things with me everyday. mostly every night you called me and we will chat on the phone. Most of the time, i fell asleep. I apologized for that, cause i was really sleepy and was working almost everyday. You always tell me, i dont need you anymore. You guys always assume and thought that will be it. You always cheer me up when i'm down. I still remember our day out with one of the other on christmas, i really had fun with you both that day. You always talked nonsense just to cheer me up. Our grafiti, our nicknames. I still remember. And thanks for buying all those spongebob stuffs for me.. Thanks a lot.. Things would be better if you're back, but i know you'll say. You'll only know why i am doing all these if i were you. how would i know if you dont wanna tell me? Im not a worm in your mind.. We had misunderstanding in the past, but we managed to get over it. But whats happening now? I love and miss you sis...

4: We cycled, we played skyrunner. We did a lot of shit together. You shared you problems with me. You'll look for me when you're down and share it with me. I'm willing to be your listening ears. But why ain't you looking for me anymore? I share with you my problems too... You are willing to stay with me till late night when im down even though you know your mum gonna scold you. Thanks son.. I love and miss you son...

To the 4 of you, i may be keeping silent. But that doesn't mean you're no longer part of my life anymore. You guys are parts and parcels of my life. We really drifted far apart. I no longer understand all of you. You guys no longer look for me. You guys moved on, but i'm still wandering here. Im missing all of you badly. I want all of you back in my life. Without one, everything seems different. But now, all left and im left with one. Life's suffering hard now. If i were given a choice starting from 2010 january. I will still be close with you all and go through those ups and downs together. But this time, i gonna do things differently. I'll cherish all of you.. I wont take it for granted anymore.. I really hope all 5 of us will be back together as one.. I really want you guys back!!! ):

我现在有个小小的要求。我想和你们四个吃一顿晚餐或则是一起出去玩。
你门能够完成我的要求吗？）：
Sigh, I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

2011-07-12T18:06:00.002+08:00

Thanks for being the best friends i ever had.
It's my luck to know all of you.
Yes, we are fading apart.
Especially me, the problems doesn't lies with anyone of you.
But me...
There's a lot of reasons why i'm doing this.
I'm sorry.
You guys are the best part of my life.
Those things we did was the best things that happened in my life.
You guys means the most to me.
But i realized, relying too much on someone won't do you good.
But hurt and harm you a lot.
I thought you guys were the one i needed the most.
I was wrong.
I need you guys, but i can't rely and put hopes so much on all of you.

Especially to you,

You're the best i ever had.

But you're also the friend who hurt me the most among all.

Sigh.

You doesn't seems to be giving a damn about anything.

So what for i do so much and bother when you don't care?

You're the first friend i ever did so much for.

But you don't seems to be appreciating and cherishing.

Why?

I don't understand.

There's nothing much i can do.

It takes 2 hands to clap.

What for i put my hand out and you not wanting to put yours?

This is damn saddening, i swear.

You're the one i can't bear to lose.

You're the one that been through the most with me.

But why is all this happening?

Hais.

Thanks bro...
Thanks for being there in the past when i needed you the most.

Thanks for being there whenever i'm in need of help.

Thanks for all those things you did.

Thanks for the memories.

Thanks a lot.

And sorry, the problem lies with me...

I just hope that what i told you in the past,

you'll keep it in heart and listen to me.

I doesn't do you any harm.

Take care and all the best,

dearests!

2011-05-08T18:51:00.003+08:00

Celebrated jess's birthday yesterday.
Glad that everyone was present, except one.

Hoping all the 9 of us will stay together as one.

569 days,

i miss you,
Grandpa!

2011-02-16T22:44:00.002+08:00

I'm back to blogging after so long.

School is fun!

488 days without Grandpa.

I miss you Grandpa!

I LOVE YOU!

2010-12-20T21:32:00.003+08:00

Been a long time since i last blogged.
Spider webs all over! *
Registered for 2011's ITE.
1st choice: Asian Culinary Arts.
2nd choice: Western Culinary.
3rd choice: Pastry & Baking.
4th choice: Food & Beverages Operations.
Few more days to 2011.
Gonna study hard when 2011 strikes.
My promises to Grandpa, I gonna keep that promise.
My future is in my own hand, what i'm doing now will be what i'll be in the future.

No more playing a fool! Wasted too much youth playing around!
Time to wake up! Jiayou! :D

Wasn't in any mood the past few weeks.
Too much things happened.

Well, i'm over with it.

Decide to let go. (:

What matter is time.

Injuries from work,

sibei jialat.

Kana bang by a trolley that drop down for a shoulder-height loading bay.

Went for X-ray on saturday, there seems like a 5-cent coin dent in on my shin.
Waiting for the clinic to call, if everything's is alright, that's the best.

Worse come to worse, CASTING! ): _l_

430 since Grandpa left.

I miss you alot, Grandpa!
I LOVE YOU! <3

对不起，我也不想这样。

我已经选择了放弃，放弃我所拥有的一切。

我无话可说了。

我想说的，我通通都说了。

没有往回的余地了。

你没有错，都是我想太多。

真的很对不起，要是一开始我没提出，就没事了。

我知道，现在后悔已经太迟了。

我已经下定决心了。

我不会再回头了。

还是做朋友好。

我很希望，你不要再提出这件事了。

给我一点时间，我一定能够忘记所发生过的事。

I hope you will not remind me of those things again.

I just want to be friends, is it so difficult?

I'm seriously sorry, i'm at fault.

2010-10-04T19:47:00.002+08:00

In the chinese lunar calendar, this wednesday, 6th october.

Is your 1st death anniversary.

You left us for a year.

I guess you miss us too.

Wai Gong, i've a lot of things to tell you.

I hope that i have the chance to see you again and i"ll tell you everything!

I really miss those days we had together.

Those times when i was still a very small girl.

I stayed in your house, you grew me up.

From the kindergarten life, you'll always pick me up from school no matter rain or shine.

If it rains, you'll sacrifaces your umbrella and get yourself drenched.

You'll definitely get me whatever things that i said i wanted while on our way back home.

When you sold your house and move in together with us.

You woke up at 5.30am just to send us to school.

Even though it's a very long journey, you never fail to do so.

During mid of 2009, i didn't visit you that often.

Sometimes i even skipped that sunday just to go out with friends.

I really regret, i wanna have more time together with you.

15 years, 11 months, 10 days with you in my life.

I can never forget what happened on 16th october 2009.

Seeing you suffering and i can't do anything to help you,

i felt so useless.

When you were alive, i always asked myself this question " What will happen to me if you leave this world. ".

Now, the answer is out.

I'm still alive, but whenever i think of you.

I'll cry, missing those days with you.

Remembering what happened on 16th october, the saddest day of my life.

Whenever i looked at your things, it reminds me of you.

I really miss you alot.

Everyone of us miss you, especially Grandma.

I can see her crying herself to sleep sometimes.

You're the Greatest Grandpa!
You'll never be forgotten, you're forever living in my heart!
I LOVE YOU, GRANDPA!
I hope you're doing well now!

我爱你！

2010-09-16T21:02:00.002+08:00

Did a fucking stupid thing yesterday!
Fuck my life!
I shouldn't say that.
I acted too rashly and i regretted now!
If i could turn time back, i wouldn't say that.
SORRY!
Even though i hope for much more things but i know it won't happen.
All the best!

2010-09-01T21:14:00.011+08:00

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY,

TEACHERS!

Especially,

Mdm Noelle Tan

Mr Wilson Tay! :D

Went back Telok Kurau Secondary School yesterday for teacher's day celebration!
Actually my leave wasn't really approve.
But i didn't regret going back.
This is the last year, TKSS is celebrating teacher's day.
And it might even be the last time for me to get to see all my teachers!
Had so much fun in school, even though its just 3 hours.
TKSS will be gone next year.
I'll never forget the days i had in TKSS.
Those punishments, suspension, detention and stuffs.
Those scoldings from teachers.
Those days in principal office.
Those happy moments with friends.
Those competition in school.
I'll never forget TKSS.
It's the best school!
Telok Kurau Secondary School is a place we call home.
You grew us up.
I regret that i didn't choose to retain sec 2.
If i choose to retain sec 2, i'm still in school now.
Enjoying the last year of TKSS.
TELOK KURAU SECONDARY SCHOOL ROCKS TO THE MAX!
THANKS TEACHERS! :D

Group photos;

Mdm Tan! :D

Mr Tay! :D

Miss Tan! :D Mr Raj! :D Mdm Aishah! :D Mdm Nurli! :D ( not sure ) Mr Rahim! :D

Photos with teachers;

Best teacher, Mdm Tan! :D

2nd best, Mr Tay! :D
Mrs Kua! :D Miss Grace! :D Miss Tan! :D
Mdm Nurli? :D
Mr Raj! :D
Mr Paul! :D

Mr Neelan! :D

Miss Islin! :D

Miss Feng! :D

Miss Ong! :D
Mr Lim! :D
Mr Rahim! :D

And last but now least,

Thanks principal, Mr Singh!
Thanks for giving me so many chances to stay in school.

Or else, i might be holding on to my PSLE certificate now.

I know, i'm a big headache in school.

Thanks for tolerating all those craps i did.

Thanks for giving me the chance to prove it to you that i can and i will change.

Thanks, Mr Singh! :D

310810;

a wonderful day of my life that i'll never ever forget!

I LOVE

TELOK KURAU

SECONDARY SCHOOL!

2010-08-17T06:36:00.002+08:00

Been a longggggggg time since I last post!
Don't know what to post.
All my audience left my blog liao. :D
Maybe next year, I'll keep my blog alive.
2011, will be the year when I start bucking up and study hard!
Well, as for now, nothing much to talk about.
Everyday, repeating the same thing.
So ya, WORKING LIFE SUCKS!

Byebye, (:

2010-07-12T19:21:00.002+08:00

17 more days to your birthday,
I miss you alot.
I feel like texting you.
But I promised myself that I won't.
Cause if I do,
the history gonna repeat itself again.
I thought that time,
things was alright and it's was stable.
But end up,
it's just a kids play to you,
an anger venting machine to you,
a walking ATM machine to you.
WTF is wrong with this?
All those words you said,
it seems the like the opposite way.
That will be the last time.
No more.
The ending is just the beginning.
What matter is time,
time gonna prove things all wrong,
prove that I can get over you.
And not brooding over you,
cause I see no point doing so much things for you
and you don't appreciate it.

2010-07-11T14:54:00.002+08:00

Ton at cheng's house with Cheng and Audrey yesterday.
Slept at 7.30am and woke up at 10.30am.
~ ~

2010-06-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

LOVES,

2010-06-09T21:25:00.002+08:00

Went out with Weicheng yesterday night.
Had dinner at hougang mall.

Ate steamboat buffet.

Went to challenger to buy things.

Bought a 16GB iPod nano for $288.

Went arcade.

After that while smoking and waiting for cab.

Something happened.

Shall not explicit much on that.

I've decided to let it go and not think so much.

Well, i'll still miss him.

But i'll not brood over it for a long time.

Let time prove everything wrong.

Life's is short, live happily.

2010-06-08T22:49:00.001+08:00

That's the end.
Game over.
And we will never be back again.
I had enough of your nonsense.
I won't give in anymore.
Cause i'll get nothing in return.
Fuck the world.
Fuck my life.
That's it.
BROKE DOWN!

2010-06-06T11:09:00.002+08:00

Didn't blog for a long time.
Cause i lent my com to my brother.
Kinda regret quitting Jumbo.
If not now, im 1/8 completed my traineeship.
Don't feel like going to ITE next year.
Use to working life.
Fucking assistant manager! _l_
If you didn't pick a fight with me,
i'll still be working there.
Now then i know, you working at demsey.
Fuck!

Went to dentist on 27th May and 4th June.
Polish-ed and fill my teeth.
Wasted $300!
Damn it.

I miss school life!
I miss TKSS!
I miss my teachers!
I miss my classmates, schoolmates and friends!
I miss those day we had together.
But things changed.
Now only left me and Weicheng.
The rest fled.
We're just like hi-bye friend now.
Didn't contact for such a long time.
We even had a fight.
WTF.

2010-06-06T01:39:00.002+08:00

外公，我很想念你，非常想念你。
你的日子好吗？
I miss those days I had with you.
When I fell asleep in the living room, you carried me to the room without waking me up.
When you fetch me from school and it rains, you sacriface your umbrella and get yourself wet.
When you buy sweets for me whenever I asked for it.
You never failed to satisfy my wants.
You did as many things to make me happy.
Mum said, she dreamt of you.
She was out with Jiu Jiu and suddenly he went missing.
Mum looked for him and saw him talking to you.
After awhile you disappeared.
If time could rewind, I'll defintely cherish those time we spend together.
And not by shouting and screaming back at you when you scold me.
When i found out that you were diagnosed with 4th stage cancer.
I've tried my best to cherish the time we going to have.
I tried to spend as much time as possible as I had with you.
I promised you, I'll get good results for my N's.
I kept your promise and I studied hard and i got good results for my N's!
But why you wasn't there to celebrate with me?
I miss those days when I live at your house.
I miss your scolding.
I miss you.
I want you to come back!
I LOVE YOU, GRANDPA!
I appreciate all those things you've done for me.

2010-06-04T11:09:00.001+08:00

I urgently need someone to talk to now!
LOO WEI CHENG, where the fuck are you?!
I MISS MY GRANDPA VERY MUCH!
Grandpa, how are you now?
Grandma is settling well at er-yi's house now.
Although she kept on asking did we dream of you or not.
Hais.
GRANDPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! T_T
I want you to come back!

2010-05-24T19:41:00.001+08:00

GAME OVER! T_T

2010-05-22T08:43:00.001+08:00

Went out with Natalie and Weicheng yesterday night.
Walk walk around.
Went drinking.

You're really full of craps!
Dammit.

Kea zua, go drink. Now got rashes.
Suey siao.

2010-05-21T12:07:00.003+08:00

Quarrel with him again.
Well, this time is a big fight.
I think it'll take a long time in order for us to forgive each other
or
perhaps not forgiving.
3 days in a row, we quarrel.
Is this suppose to be a joke or pathetic?
I think, it's about to end.
Pointless doing all this craps over and over again.
Cause I'll not get anything in return.
I thought this time round, things will get better then what we are in the past.
It's didn't, instead it got worse.
We can't even communicate well.
Everytime, I were the one who gave in.
Something is wrong, very wrong.

When I'm down.
You are the one that's suppose to be there for me.
But you are not there.
Instead it's Weicheng and Nevin.
_|_

2010-05-20T22:44:00.001+08:00

I don't know why am I feeling this way.
At the start, it was alright.
But now i started to find you irritating.
LOL.

2010-05-16T22:19:00.001+08:00

Updated private blog.
www.tudiguaa.blogspot.com

2010-05-16T19:21:00.000+08:00

Out with Natalie today.

I didn't bother to message you today.
Cause you can't be bothered with me too.
):

2010-05-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

Out today, with weicheng, Natalie and meihua.
Did quite alot of things that wasted alot of money.
Watched ip man.
A very good movie.
Worth watching.

Although we are together.
But we doesn't look like we are.
I don't know what's going on.
What I'm getting from you is ignorance.
What's wrong? ):
Can you tell me?
Having you is equal to not having you.
ily.

2010-05-13T22:43:00.001+08:00

130510; 10.40pm.
Iloveyou! :D

2010-05-13T18:22:00.000+08:00

Anyone wanna be volunteer at old folk's home?
If you're interested, contact me!

2010-05-11T17:22:00.001+08:00

Sick. ):
Since Saturday till now.

2010-05-02T11:44:00.001+08:00

I thought i'm tan-ned?
When i wake up this morning,
i'm back to white!
WTH! ):

198 days,

Grandpa i miss you! ):

2010-05-01T23:32:00.003+08:00

Cab to bedok interchange to meet weicheng at 7.45am.
Had breakfast.
Cab to east coast park for prawning.
Meihua came to look for us.
Caught 56 prawns. Hoseh!
Prawning end at 2.30.
Meihua went back home after that.
Wanted to go sheesha with weicheng.
End up rent bike. Rent for 4 hours.
Ride from 3 to 7.
Ride to alot alot alot of places!
After that cab to parkway to look for weicheng's dad.
Had dinner with them.
And came back home.

I'm so happy! Cause I'm tan-ned!
Hopefully I won't change back to white!(:

2010-04-29T23:33:00.001+08:00

Full of lies!
Fuck you, bastard.
Knnbccb, you won't know how it feels like!
You think it's very shiok?
Fuck you!
You're too much!
Way too much!

2010-04-27T23:55:00.003+08:00

Went out with jiahao, Natalie and weicheng.
Went to cheng's house.
Talked to his dad.

Stupid Nevin put us aeroplane.

Cheng, this is for you.
We really hope you'll change.
It's for your own good.
We all want you good.
Whatever promises you made,
make sure it's not broken promises.
We have trust in you and we believe you can change.
It's the matter of time.
This will be the last chance.
It's up to you to prove it or not.
If you don't want,
your future will be ruin.
We can't force you to do anything.
We can only hope and pray for the best.
We already did our best to help you.
It's your own performance now.
Keep your promise!

Hao, this is for you.
Even though you drop out of school already.
But you're still taking private N's.
Study hard and we can get in to ITE together.
You, me, cheng and Nevin.
Maybe different course.
But definitely same campus.
All the best!
Study hard!

Nevin, this is for you.
Hopefully tomorrow is a lucky day for you.
Hope that your problem with Mr Singh can be solve easily.
All the best! Goodlucks! :D

2010-04-27T12:08:00.002+08:00

Cheng, how are you?
Cheng, we'll pray for you,
porbi you'll be fine.
If you really go in pae,
we'll all be waiting for you.
Our promises, friends till old.

2010-04-26T22:07:00.003+08:00

Hais. Fucking shag this few days. Unfortunately things keep on happening.
Why?
I need someone to talk to, anyone?
Not in any mood this few days.
If time could rewind,
I'll still do the same things but in a different way.
I'll keep you by my side, not letting the bitch take you away.
I regretted, giving you up, letting you go.
And let that bitch win.
If that time, I was strong.
We might still be together now.
Whatever things you said,
is not that i don't wanna believe.
Is that I've lost trust on you.
And it'll take a long time to gain it back.
Very sad and moodless nowadays.
Drinking, anyone?
You promised me, you'll change.
Although I know you won't.
But I still going to wait for that day.
You're going Thailand, is that true?
I wanna forget you but I can't.
I tried but I alwad failed to do so.
2 years plus already.
You didn't seem to change at all.
You're still the same old you.

When I heard from my friends that you went clubbing,
I jitao shag.
Drank with them,
now with rashes all over my hand.
Iwbwftdyc! ILY!

):

2010-04-25T15:19:00.005+08:00

Having night life this few months.

Meet Audrey at 3.30am.

Cab to east coast for prawning.

After that around 6am, Fiona came.

Prawn-ed till 8.30am.

BBQ it and eat it.

Slack at there till 10am.

Cab to Pasir ris inter, fiona want to get a ring.

After that bused down to Audrey's house.

Called xiuwen, then she came over to Audrey's house.

Walk-ed to Tampines mall, bought a wallet.

Me and Audrey train-ed to Redhill to get something.

Had KFC at bukit merah.

Received a call from weicheng, asking me to go sheesha with them.

Cab down to jurong east find Weicheng, Nevin and Jiahao.
Slack at his house till 5.30pm.
Cab to Haji lane for sheesha.

Had lime sheesha.
ARound 8.30pm, terrence came.
Settled our problem.
And went back to haji lane for another round of sheesha.

This time round, orange sheesha and Vodka + 7up.
Drink until 11pm.

Cab down to geylang, drank carlsberg there.

Drank till 2.30am like that, cab home.

Shag-ed. _l_

Kinda sick now.

Sore throat, cough and rashes! _l_

Why am i like a fool?

Treating you so well and that's what i get in return.
WHY?!
You gonna regret it, fucker!
I swear, i gonna forget you.

Fucked up! _l_

191 days,

Grandpa, i miss you! ):

2010-04-16T23:22:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday, Mr Wilson Tay!

182 days,
Grandpa i miss you! ):

2010-04-10T21:11:00.003+08:00

Went prawning on friday night with Wei Cheng and Jimmy.

Went out at 8pm, prawn-ed from 11.30pm till 3.30am.

47 prawns! Hoseh uh!

BBQ, eat, talk, smoke, till 5am.
Cab home after that.

176 days,

Grandpa i miss you! ):

2010-04-04T20:33:00.002+08:00

Cab to Junwei's house at 4am.

Slack-ed.

Around 4.45am, Weicheng came and join us.

Slack, eat, talk cock.

Had fun.

Cab back home around 7am.
Dropp-ed Weicheng back home.

Although its a short period of time, but we enjoyed it! :D

170 days,

Grandpa, i miss you! ):

2010-04-03T22:10:00.003+08:00

Height and weight changed but face and hair never change!

I lived in the world for 16 years, 4 months, 27 days.

5,991 days,

143,783 hours,

8,627,040 minutes,

517,622,400 seconds.

But i never seems to do anything that make the world proud.

Well, thanks my Grandparents who brought me up.

Had family gathering yesterday.
Somehow its like a farewell dinner.

Aunt going over to shanghai.

Went up to Grandpa's room.

Felt so empty.

I open up Grandpa's cupboard and flipped through his belonging.

Everything is still placed nicely.

Grandma never keep it away.
Grandma, stay strong!

169 days! ):

I miss you, Grandpa!

2010-03-31T19:35:00.000+08:00

I miss you,

Grandpaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

166 days.

2010-03-28T11:20:00.002+08:00

Meet Weicheng and Audrey at 4am at Hougang.
Cab down to East Coast Park.
Prawn-ed for 3 hours.
5.15am - 8.15am.
Caught 41 prawns!
Had fun!
I love prawn-ing! :D

163 days,
Grandpa, i miss you! ):

2010-03-27T23:54:00.003+08:00

The "BAT ROOM".
"Flying Squirrel"

It had been almost a year, even since we had cousin outing.

Had cousin outing on friday.

After work, meet them at Northpoint mcdonald.

Drove to night safari.

Took the tram.

Had fun.

The most scary part was when we went in to the mangrove walk.

Bat flying around us.

All of us so humji.

What a joke.

After that, went to the flying squirrel room.

Didn't even see a single squirrel.

Walk walk, see see.

Walk to the suspension bridge.

The most fun part.

We keep jumping on the bridge as if we are about to bounce out of it.
HAHA!
Really had fun.

Went off around 11.45pm.

Had supper and back home!

I love my family! x33

162 days,

Grandpa, i miss you! ):

2010-03-24T19:14:00.002+08:00

I miss Telok Kurau Secondary School life!
The photo above is what we do when we are schooling.
Everytime got punish and sit outside office.
Haha! :D

159 days,

Grandpa i miss you! ):

2010-03-23T22:58:00.003+08:00

Went to work.

Aunt drop me at Joo Koon MRT at 11am.

Train-ed to Eunos meet Chunhowe and Junwei.

Went to school to collect N level certificate.
Ate in school canteen.

Wait for Nevin, Jiahao and Terrence.

Went to Eunos block slack awhile.

Jiahao and Terrence left.

Chunhowe, Junwei and Nevin accompanied me back home.

Cab to Leisure park after that.

Play arcade.

Play Maximum tune with Junwei and other 2 guys.

Think they not happy uh.

When they walk away, they come bang my chair.

They left about 1 minute, i think and it make me more pekchek.

We went to search for them.

But failed to find them.
Sibei dulan sia.

Had Dinner at Leisure park.

Cab to geylang then back home.

Had fun today with Junwei and Chunhowe! xD

158 days,

Grandpa i miss you! ):

2010-03-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

Woohoos!

Rui En got into shi da!
Hoseh liao!

Jiayous! :D

2010-03-20T20:14:00.002+08:00

Meet Junwei at Tampines hair salon there.

He dye his hair, while i cut my hair.

After that went to Jumbo to eat.

Talk craps.

Cab home after that.

Reached home around 1am.

Gay hair? LOL!

2010-03-20T01:01:00.001+08:00

Meet Junwei just now.
Just reached home.
Will upload the photo when i have the time.

2010-03-17T18:42:00.003+08:00

I've regretted treating you so well in the past.
You've changed, totally changed.
You've changed into a character that i don't even know who you are.
I swear, i'm not going to treat you so good anymore.
What i did wasn't cherished by you.
All those things i did, is wasted.
Fuck you! _l_

2010-03-16T22:02:00.004+08:00

It've been more then a week ever since i last blog.

Well, i'm back!

I wanna get car and bike license!

Many things happen this few days.

Shall not talk much on that.

I miss school life!
I miss TKSS!

I miss my schoolmates, classmate and my favourite teachers!
Chat with Mdm Tan at facebook that day, talk quite a lot of craps.

Woohoos.

If, i can study another year at TKSS, i will!

Kaypoh ji, mind you own fucking business!
It's my fucking problem, not yours! _l_

151 days,

3624 hours,

217440 minutes,

13046400 seconds.
I miss you, Grandpa!
I love you!

2010-03-08T22:56:00.001+08:00

Happy

Birthday,

Mama! :D

143 days. ):

2010-03-06T15:59:00.001+08:00

Is this how iphone going to look like in the future?

I want to get iphone!

Waiting for the new release and i'm getting it!

2010-03-06T00:20:00.004+08:00

I just realised it have be a few weeks going a month ever since i last update my blog.

Well, everyday is the same for me.
Wake up, work, eat, work, sleep. Wake up, work, eat, work, sleep. Wake up, work, eat, work, sleep.

Everyday doing the same thing.

Super tired.

I always failed to get what i wanted.

Expected.

I gonna get

Iphone,

Bike License

Vespa,

Sooner or later!

141 days since Grandpa left,

I Miss You. ):

2010-02-14T12:15:00.002+08:00

2010-02-14T11:56:00.001+08:00

Went to my Aunt house at night.
Had dinner.
Played poker with my cousin first.

Big small, who lose will drink beer.
LOL.

After that everyone sat down and started playing 21 dian.

Well, i lose.

Received a call from Terrence, jio-ing me to Chinatown.

I meet him at Hougang MRT around 11pm.

Train-ed down to Chinatown.

Walked around chinatown.

Saw Jessica, weixin.... ....

After that, we sat at a corner to have our smoke break,

we saw a lady vomiting.

We went to buy a mineral water and offer her.

So kind right?!

Saw the fireworks.

Around 1plus,

We wanted to walk to boat quay to have our supper.

End up, walk till don't know.

Heng Terrence got iphone.

Use the map and we found our way.

Had supper and talk cock awhile.

Cab home around 3 plus.

At the Nicole highway, got police block.

The police stop our cab and ask us to go down.

Asked for our particulars.

Scary sia.

Thought he will spot check us.

Reach home around 3.30am.

Beer!

Poker Poker!
Qian Hao & Me!

Me & Terrence!

Chinatown!

2010-02-13T13:11:00.005+08:00

Grandpa, where are you?
Chinese New Year is here.
Reunion dinner tonight.
Will you be back?
Once again, sitting down having out meal together?

), :
I miss you, Grandpa!

2010-02-12T21:10:00.002+08:00

Meet Leonard at my house downstair at 9.

Cab to school.

Went in to see see look look.

After that, Nevin, Leo and Hao pei me go back take Jumbo uniform.

Bused to jumbo to return uniform.

Went to Leisure park arcade.

Jarnet and Weicheng came over.

Slack awhile, jarnet, weicheng and nevin went home.

Leo, me and Hao bused to Bugis.

Ate KFC.

Meet hao's friend, jesslyn and weiren.

Went to sheesha.
Home-ed!

Credits to Nevin!

Me and my dad, Mr Quekkkkkkkkkkkkk!
Mdm Tan's chocolate! :D

Ah Hao, me & Leo!

Leo, Me & Ah Hao!

Me & Ah Hao!

Hao eating donut!

Sheesha!

2010-02-11T09:45:00.001+08:00

I've quit my traineeship.

2010-02-08T00:14:00.001+08:00

Went out today.
Prawn fishing.
Search for lamborghini around the singapore!
Finally found one!

2010-02-06T14:52:00.002+08:00

Play audition with Natalie just now.
Ballroom dance.
Funny song.
Couple with Natalie now.

Going my aunt house soon.

2010-02-05T10:59:00.001+08:00

I'm sick again!
MC 1day, minus 3 days pay!
New year period!
Wtf!

2010-02-03T09:49:00.003+08:00

I remember what you wore when i first saw you.

J. (:

2010-02-03T09:26:00.002+08:00

020210

Meet Yoo Yee at Eunos mrt at 1pm.

Went to school outside to eat wanton mee. =p

Waited outside school for Mrs Kua around 2.40.

Collected my cookies.

Then went to smoking area smoke awhile.

Took bus to Aunt's place after that.

Look for Jimmy.

Drove to Changi there to see bike.

Saw a white vespa, new bike, $7000+ .

Wanted to go see airshow.

But need buy ticket at sistic.

So went to Arab street for sheesha.

Went to pick aunt up around 7.30pm.

Head to toapayoh.

Drove Aunt's brother.

And drop them at Aunt's house.

Then we continue our journey.

Went to Geylang for steamboat.
Not really good.

Drove Yoo Yee back around 11pm.

Went to cineleisure.

Wanted to catch My Ex, midnight movie.

But not showing during that time.

Then went to Plaza sing to take a look.

Closed.

Went to Aunt house around 12.30am.

Left her house around 1am.

Head to East Coast Park for prawn fishing.

Left me and Jimmy, we fish-ed for 2hours.

Caught 6 little prawn.

Basically i caught 5.

Well, Jimmy caught 1.

LOL!

BBQ our prawn and ate it.

Went to mac.

Mac is already selling breakfast already!

Went home around 4.45am.

Woke up at 8am today.

3 hours of sleep.

Gonna suffer later!

Catching My Ex later and off to work!

My future bike? xD

Jimmy's shade.

Pathetic 6 little prawn we caught. ):

Poke!

Finally, it's cooked!

2010-01-31T09:16:00.001+08:00

Saw Mrs Kua yesterday.
She went to eat.
Didn't notice her till she was about to leave.

2010-01-24T22:55:00.000+08:00

Bought a new laptop.
Aiming for iphone now!
Woohoos.

2010-01-24T08:13:00.001+08:00

Today is Grandpa's 100 day.
Going to pray now.
):

2010-01-22T13:05:00.002+08:00

My wishlist during 2010 first 2 months.
1. Buy Iphone.
2. Buy a new laptop.

During 2012,
1. Get bike license.
2. Get a bike. ( Vespa )

2010-01-21T00:57:00.000+08:00

你走了,
I miss you.

2010-01-20T22:01:00.002+08:00

Future car,

Mini Cooper S ( Green )

Subaru Impreza WRX STI ( White )

Future bike,

Vespa ( Green )

2010-01-20T02:37:00.002+08:00

You raise me up.
I'll remember those days we spent together.

外公, 外婆我爱你.

It have been 96 days since Grandpa left us. ):

2010-01-20T01:57:00.002+08:00

Meet Leonard outside school around 1pm.
Went to eat wanton mee.
Walk around school after that.
Wait for Jiahao to end school.
Bus to Jiahao's house.
He went to bath and change.
Then train to Marine Square.
Bought movie tickets for " The Spy Next Door. "
Nice show, totally worth watching!
★★★★★
The show starts at 7pm.
They played pool while i played arcade.
Went into the cinema at 7.15pm.
Went Justacia eat.
Nice food and cheap. Totally worth it!
Went back to arcade after that.
Played Maximum tune.
Jiahao left around 11.30pm.
Me and Leonard went to play pool, play for a long time. Only $9.
Went downstair to smoke.
Cab home around 1pm.
Had alot of fun and jokes with them.

2010-01-18T19:31:00.001+08:00

I'm sick again. ):
Went out with Leonard, Jiahao, Weicheng and Jeremy just now.

2010-01-17T00:57:00.000+08:00

Exactly 3 months,
93 days,
2232 hours,
133920 minutes,
8035200 seconds since Grandpa left us. ):

2010-01-16T12:53:00.001+08:00

Just updated my private blog.

Grandpa, i miss you!

It've been 92 days since you left us.
But it seems to be life 92 months?

Come back, will you?

2010-01-16T12:07:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Charmaine aka flower jie jie!

2010-01-14T12:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY CHNG HUI SHAN!

2010-01-13T09:37:00.004+08:00

120110
Meet Jimmy around 8am.
Went to school, he went to collect his N level results.
After that ate in school.
Then walk out to bagus, about to light my cigarettes.
We saw Mr Quek, so i hold the cigaretttes on my hand.
But Mr Singh came after that, he told me to stop my habit. -.-
Cab to Rafi's house.
Went out with Aunt, Uncle and Yuyut.
Went to Ubi Automobile Megamart.
Look at Second hand cars.
After that, cab to Lorong Ah So, the rent car shop, but it's close.
Cab back to Aunt house.
Talk a while, drank a can of tiger beer.
Then cab to Bedok with Aunt and Yuyut, rent a car.
Then i realise i left my cigarettes at the second hand car shop.
Jimmy drove us to Tampines, i went to cut my hair.
Then drove to the second hand car shop to take back my cigarettes.
Drove back to Aunt house, Aunt bring Yuyut go back home and she went to cook rice.
So jimmy drove up the multistorey carpark and i drove the car.
LOL. Damn funny.
Tried to park a perfect parking but it took me so long.
Jimmy drove downstair.
Went to look for cake. Ordered a cake.
Then went to fetch Aunt.
Drove to Haji lane.
Went to Sheesha with Jimmy and Aunt.
Drank another can of tiger again.
Around 9pm, went to Mirama.
Pick up Uncle and Rafi.
Then went to changi village look see look see.
Bought 2 pin of tiger, shared with uncle.
Around 11.20pm. Sent Uncle and Aunt go back.
We went to collect the cake.
Then drove to Natalie's house.
At 12am sharp, i knock on her door, wanted to give her a surprise.
But she was asleep. -.-
Her mum wake her up.
Then cut the cake.
After eating, Jimmy, Rafi, Natalie and me went to East coast.
Slack there a while.
Felt bored.
So told Jimmy to anyhow drive.
Wanted to stalk a Honda Civic. But his car too fast.
So went to Marina Barrage.
Then anyhow drive.
Drive to Geylang see Chicken, but no more at there.
Then drove natalie back home.
Then i went back around 1.55am.

First ugly parking.
Trying to park nicely.

A not so perfect but alright parking.

Jimmy!

Happy birthday Natalie Tan Bird Bird!

17 years old already!

Old AUNT! ):

2010-01-07T09:40:00.003+08:00

Went to school on tuesday to find Jiahao and Weicheng.
Look at what weicheng eat.

No time to blog already.

Need go work liao.

No life!

83 days. ) : I miss you,

2010-01-01T09:26:00.001+08:00

Happy new year!

Work yesterday.
Mrs Kua came to eat.
And i serve that area where she seat.
Broke 2 bowls, drop 2 plastic cups and clear a table when the customer still wants it.
LOL.

SIAN AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

77 days. ) :

2009-12-30T14:06:00.003+08:00

281209.
Meet Junwei in the morning.
Had lunch together.
Then he accompanied me to Jumbo.
Work from 12 - 3 and 6 - 12.
Home.

291209
Meet Natalie at Eunos.
Had breakfast and bought some stuffs.
She cut my tail away. Cause i'm caught with the tail. ) :
Cab to work while she bus to her sister's place.
Work from 12 - 3 and 6 - 12.
Home.

Before

And,

After. (:

301209.
Happy birthday to MDM TAN!

Working later.
OT.
6 till 11.

75 days. ):

2009-12-28T09:41:00.002+08:00

Webcam with Dehao yesterday night.

Got in Food & Beverage for full-time course.
But pointless.
Already signed up for traineeship.

Working at Jumbo Indoor stadium outlet later.
Hope everything is fine.
Traineeship starts during april.

73days.

2009-12-27T16:09:00.002+08:00

Grandpa watching his favourite "da xi".
Grandpa's favourite seat.

Found this 2 photos in my phone.
He was still fine during July.
Still can go to temple at little india there watch his favourite show in his favourite seat, cut dried leaf.

72days.

2009-12-25T00:45:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas!

Unhappy Christmas.
No family gathering.
Grandpa not around. ) :
Merry Christmas Grandpa!
70 days.

2009-12-24T22:14:00.002+08:00

Went to interview today!
SUCCESS!
Will start work on this coming monday at Jumbo Restaurant located at Indoor Stadium ( Kallang ).
Traineeship starts at April!
I think, i will like the job!

2009-12-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

Interview at Jumbo Seafood tomorrow with Chunhowe at 9.30am.
Hope i don't scold the interviewer " Like dog sia".
Like what i did during the Robinson sale's interview.
Hopefully i pass the interview.

Christmas is coming.

No more family gathering. ):

My mum, aunt and Grandma not in singapore.

Hais. Even if we gather together, also not fun anymore. ):

65 days.

I miss you. ) :

2009-12-22T20:49:00.002+08:00

Thanks Natalie Tan Brainless Bird for chatting with me throughout the night.
Chat with her on the phone from 12 till 5.45am.
Till i fall asleep and she felt phek chek and hang up the phone.
Slept for few minutes and off to work.
Natalie slept till 1pm.
Talk about alot of things.
All those past.

Will be going for interview on thursday.

Hopefully i can get in.

64 days. ) :

Imy.

2009-12-21T22:12:00.003+08:00

Meet chunhowe at Tampines interchange.
After that Huiqing's dad drove us to Dover ITE Headquarter.
Listened to their talk about Traineeship.
Signed up and settle our stuffs there.
Head to Simei after that.
Went to arcade to have a few games.
Then we saw Miss Tan and Miss Chew at East point.
Nothing to do at there.
So had a bet with Chunhowe.
See who can find the teachers first.
Whoever found the teachers, will get a cigarette.
Hahah.
Me and Huiqing went to 4th floor and 5th floor.
Can't see anyone there.
Chunhowe search the 2nd floor.
End up he found the teachers.
Haha! He won the bet! ):
Huiqing went back home.
Me and Chunhowe took bus 9.
Wanted to go to Bedok to find some office wear attire.
Took bus 9.
Wend to somewhere behind changi village.
We need the don't know what card than can go in.
End up got chase down the bus.
Damn joke. Took bus 9 back.
Drop at 201.
Had dinner and cab home.

2009-12-21T20:21:00.002+08:00

Meet Chunhowe at Tampines interchange.
Huiqing's dad drove us to ITE headquarter located at Dover.
Went there to see the talk about traineeship.
I signed up for Food & Beverage traineeship.
Chun Howe signed up for Office service traineeship.
And Hui Qing signed up for Infocom traineeship.
I signed up for the full time courses too.
1st choice - Food & Beverage.
2nd choice - Culinary skills ( Western ).
3rd choice - Pastry and Baking.
4th choice - Community Care & Social Service.
5th choice - Service skills ( Office ).
Sign up for 5 choices only.
Maximum 10 choices.
But no other ideas already.
Will be going for the interview at Jumbo Seafood.
Chunhowe will be doing office work at Jumbo Seafood too.
If we have a sucessful interview, we can work together at the same place but different job.

2009-12-20T22:33:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Grandpa!

Grandma, Mum and My Aunt is off to Penang tomorrow.
Bon voyage!

2009-12-19T21:58:00.002+08:00

2006 - 1 Loyalty - Mdm Tan
A nerdy looking girl....
First day to school, my first friend was Connie Wee.
Followed by Vivian.
Was in the same class with Jessica, Vivian and Jiahao... ...
Mixed around with Jessica Lim, Audrey, Xiu wen and Vivian everyday after school.
Mdm Tan was my form teacher at that time.
Got complain by her.
Started to know Jessica, Natasha and Desiree around June during Miss Tan's chinese lesson.
Soon after that, we became good friends.
Promted to Sec 2 NA.

2007 - 2 Loyalty - Mrs Chan
Started smoking.
Same class as Jessica, Jiahao, Ricky, Chun Howe, Brandon... ...
Had fun during sec 2.
6 of us, Natalie, Jessica, Vivian, Natasha, Desiree and me became sistership.
We smoked together, we laughed together.
We did almost everything together.
Still remember there was a day where i ponten with Jessica and came to school outside to wait for our friends. Got caught by Miss Tan Sei Hui. Bluff her that we've counselling. End up got suspended for truant.
Always got suspended with Hidayah.
Make fun of teacher, scold teachers, smoke in school, fight in school, truant etc... ...
Got suspended a lot of time.
Almost got expelled.
Before End-of-year science paper, drank with Jessica in the morning. I went in to school with a pale face. Ended up scoring 2 / 100 for my science.
Looking back to my report book, got U for every exam.
Retain-ed at Sec 2 NA.
Hidayah retained too.

2008 - 3T1 - Miss Foo, Mdm Sahara
Appeal to Sec 3 NT.
Didn't want to waste a year at NA ending up going to ITE.
Join the new class.
New friends, new subjects.
Manage to catch up in EBS and CPA.
Mixed with Hidayah at the start.
But after she stop schooling, i started mixing with Chunhowe and Junwei.
Only get to see all my sisters before school, recess and after school.
Changed to a good girl.
Skip school.
But didn't smoke in school only sometimes.
Promoted to sec 4 NT.

2009 - 4T2 - Mdm Aishah, Mdm Sahara.
Decided to study hard together with Chunhowe and Junwei.
Although we slept in class but we studied and do teachers homework.
Got into a fight with the express students.
Got internal suspension for around 3 weeks.
That was before the mid year.
Luckily i did my mid year quite well.
Never got suspended this year.
Changed to a really good students that study! xD
Broke off sistership.
Promoted to ITE!

Had fun in school.
Thanks to all the teachers for scolding me and giving me chances.
Thanks to Mr Singh, if you didn't gave me so many chances to change, i think i won't be in school anymore.
Thanks TKSS!

2009-12-19T21:51:00.003+08:00

Got my results yesterday.
Was kinda shock.
Didn't do really well in my N level.
And i'm so confident that i will fail D&T and Maths.
But i pass both of them, got A for D&T and D for Maths.
English = B
Maths = D
Computer Application = A
Design and Technology = A
Elements of Business Skills = B
Chinese = A

Grandpa, i had fulfiled my promise to you.

I promise that i'll do well in my N level.

I love you, Grandpa.

Still deciding which course to sign up for?

Food & Beverage or Community Care & Social Service?

2009-12-07T14:17:00.001+08:00

Sick.
Food poisoning and Gastric flu.
Got to eat 7 types of medicine 3 times a day.

52 days.

2009-12-04T22:47:00.001+08:00

Today is Grandpa's 7th 7 weeks.
Grandpa's tablet is now place at my Uncle place.

49 days without Grandpa.

2009-12-03T22:00:00.002+08:00

I dreamt about Grandpa.
We have a family gathering at one of my Aunt's house.
I went towards the door and knock the door.
Somebody open the door and i saw Grandpa sitting inside.
I walk towards him and asked my brother to take photo for me with Grandpa.
My brother don't want to. ( What i thought was, even if we took the photo, i think Grandpa can't be seen. )
I asked my Grandpa, when are you leaving?
He answered, i don't know.
I asked Him, what time are you leaving?
He answered, i don't know.
I asked Him, wait for Jiu Jiu ok?
He answered, ok.
I immediately called my uncle to come over to my Aunt's house because Grandpa is here.

& i woke up from my sleep. ) :

48 days without Grandpa.

2009-11-27T23:53:00.002+08:00

Back to blog.
Didn't blog for 14 days.
Too busy.
Working, Sleeping, Working, Sleeping.
Repeating the same things over and over again.

Woke up around 8am today.
Meet 15 of my family members today at the temple at 10am.
Went to pray Grandpa.
Today is the 6th 7days week. 六-七 in chinese.
After praying, went to Toa Payoh ( Don't know how to spell.)
Went to Yumcha for breakfast + lunch.
After that walk around Toa Payoh.
Head home around 2pm.
Took a short nap while the TV is watching me.
After that went to Punggol with Dehao.
Than cab to Toh Guan with Grandma and Aunt.
Went there for dinner with some relative.
Felt bored there.
Walk around and saw a lot of good cars.
Walk to IMM with Huiqing and Dehao.
Nothing to do there.
Cab to Jurong Point.
Had a few round of arcade.
Went out for a smoke and saw 4 police staring at me.
Faster board the cab and cab home.

42 days without Grandpa.

2009-11-14T19:19:00.001+08:00

Working just now.
Went to Marina Barrage.

2009-11-09T17:44:00.000+08:00

Work just now.
Just reach home.
While walking home just now,
saw Haikel, Shauki, Fadil and Muhaimin.
Going out later.
To Grandpa's temple at Little India.

2009-11-08T11:27:00.002+08:00

071109
Dehao came to my house around 11am.
Walked to Natalie's house.
Cab to Parkway.
Had Mcspicy for lunch.
After than went to arcade.
Play until 2plus.
Walk around Parkway.
Felt bored and meet Junwei at Eunos interchange.
Rafi came and pass me the present.
Slack at Eunos court.
Chunhowe came around 5pm.
Went for steamboat.
Around 7 plus, train down to Tampines.
Meet Brandon, Hongjie etc... ....
Went to Tampines 1 for arcade. Too many people.
Went to Tampines mall for arcade. Too many people also.
Than went to Century square. Finally not so many people.
Play till 11pm.
Cab home.

2009-11-07T09:06:00.002+08:00

Grandma Grandma Grandma!

The white chocolate!

My birthday present! From my mum! (:

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Work till 7.
Went to IMM Crystal Jade with my family member.
11 of them.
Had fun.
Cut the cake and i gave Grandpa the white chocolate that wrote Happy Birthday,
she use the tissue and clean it and wanted to keep it. She didn't know it's chocolate. Haha.

22 days without Grandpa.
Birthday without Grandpa.

2009-11-02T21:53:00.002+08:00

Meet Natalie just now at northpoint.
Officially start work from today onwards.
So, not really free to go out anymore.
Might be MIA-ing from the net too. (:

I miss Grandpa.

17 days without him.