Saturday, October 22, 2011 @ 8:54 PM
No one will ever understand how i feels,
i may look happy, but im not at all happy.
Really very stress and fuck up with my life.
This isnt the type of life i wanted.
Everything changed a lot.
Too much at a go.
Problems with teachers, friends, family.
Grandma gonna go for operation soon. ):
Received warning letter, kick out from competition and called parents down in school.
Friends, never ending problems.
When is all this shit going to end?
i damn tired already.
Broke down in school yesterday, cried so hard in front of wx. ):
Went to haw par villa today, really fucking shag.
Everything seems to be playing in my mind all over again.
Sitting down at the table, play true or dare.
Spamming photos in the toilet.
Really a lot of things we did together.
I thought i let everything go already.
But in fact, i havent.
Im still brooding so much over it.
Sick and tired of all this already.
When will all this end?
Can i get to refresh my mind and let all this memory leave at once?
This is a very big blow, i cant take it.
Im a loser.
FUCK MY LIFE!!! KNNBCCB!! )(*&%^$#%$^%^*()$*@!&^RF!G
Wednesday, September 14, 2011 @ 8:30 PM
What i could do now is wish all of you the best in your studies and in your future endeavours.
Good luck in your N and O.
Hope you guys study hard and get the best for your results and get into the course you all want.
I'll be here whenever you guys need me.
I'll be looking at your from far apart.
I'll still be the same old wei ting you all know.
Thanks for being there whenever i need you guys.
Having you guys in my life is the best part i ever had!
Thanks a lot.
Really love and miss you all!!
GOOD LUCK MY DEAR!
@ 8:01 PM
10 of us, all of you mean a thing to me...
But the 4 of you, mean the most to me.
And there's only 1 left here being with me...1: You had be the one i ever trusted so much for. The one i first did so much for a friend. I don't mind sacrificing all this for you. I miss you so much as a friend. We did a lot of nonsensical things together, we did funny things. We sneaked out during midnight and had fun. I miss prawning, cycling, pool, sun tanning, KTV, slacking and a lot more things i did with you. Among all, you meant the most to me. You're the one i need, the one i hope to be there for me whenever i am down. Before we started this 10 people, there was only the 2 of us. Yeah, i regretted mixing with all of them. I'm selfish... Yes, the reason why i don't wanna mix together is because you tend to leave me out more often. I really miss you alot.. I had things are all fine for you now.. Hope you remember those things i did for you, and i hope you remember and keep all those things i told you in heart.. I love you and miss you bro...
2: Nothing much to say about you. I'm only left with you now. Even though things wasn't as stable as it was before. We quarrel more often now. We ain't meeting up as much as before. But thanks for being there whenever i needed you to be around. I love you and miss you sis...3: You always shared things with me everyday. mostly every night you called me and we will chat on the phone. Most of the time, i fell asleep. I apologized for that, cause i was really sleepy and was working almost everyday. You always tell me, i dont need you anymore. You guys always assume and thought that will be it. You always cheer me up when i'm down. I still remember our day out with one of the other on christmas, i really had fun with you both that day. You always talked nonsense just to cheer me up. Our grafiti, our nicknames. I still remember. And thanks for buying all those spongebob stuffs for me.. Thanks a lot.. Things would be better if you're back, but i know you'll say. You'll only know why i am doing all these if i were you. how would i know if you dont wanna tell me? Im not a worm in your mind.. We had misunderstanding in the past, but we managed to get over it. But whats happening now? I love and miss you sis...4: We cycled, we played skyrunner. We did a lot of shit together. You shared you problems with me. You'll look for me when you're down and share it with me. I'm willing to be your listening ears. But why ain't you looking for me anymore? I share with you my problems too... You are willing to stay with me till late night when im down even though you know your mum gonna scold you. Thanks son.. I love and miss you son...
To the 4 of you, i may be keeping silent. But that doesn't mean you're no longer part of my life anymore. You guys are parts and parcels of my life. We really drifted far apart. I no longer understand all of you. You guys no longer look for me. You guys moved on, but i'm still wandering here. Im missing all of you badly. I want all of you back in my life. Without one, everything seems different. But now, all left and im left with one. Life's suffering hard now. If i were given a choice starting from 2010 january. I will still be close with you all and go through those ups and downs together. But this time, i gonna do things differently. I'll cherish all of you.. I wont take it for granted anymore.. I really hope all 5 of us will be back together as one.. I really want you guys back!!! ):
Sigh, I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011 @ 6:06 PM
Thanks for being the best friends i ever had.
It's my luck to know all of you.
Yes, we are fading apart.
Especially me, the problems doesn't lies with anyone of you.
There's a lot of reasons why i'm doing this.
You guys are the best part of my life.
Those things we did was the best things that happened in my life.
You guys means the most to me.
But i realized, relying too much on someone won't do you good.
But hurt and harm you a lot.
I thought you guys were the one i needed the most.
I was wrong.
I need you guys, but i can't rely and put hopes so much on all of you.
Especially to you,
You're the best i ever had.
But you're also the friend who hurt me the most among all.
You doesn't seems to be giving a damn about anything.
So what for i do so much and bother when you don't care?
You're the first friend i ever did so much for.
But you don't seems to be appreciating and cherishing.
I don't understand.
There's nothing much i can do.
It takes 2 hands to clap.
What for i put my hand out and you not wanting to put yours?
This is damn saddening, i swear.
You're the one i can't bear to lose.
You're the one that been through the most with me.
But why is all this happening?
Thanks for being there in the past when i needed you the most.
Thanks for being there whenever i'm in need of help.
Thanks for all those things you did.
Thanks for the memories.
Thanks a lot.
And sorry, the problem lies with me...
I just hope that what i told you in the past,
you'll keep it in heart and listen to me.
I doesn't do you any harm.
Take care and all the best,
Sunday, May 8, 2011 @ 6:51 PM
Celebrated jess's birthday yesterday.
Glad that everyone was present, except one.
Hoping all the 9 of us will stay together as one.
i miss you,
Wednesday, February 16, 2011 @ 10:44 PM
I'm back to blogging after so long.
School is fun!
488 days without Grandpa.
I miss you Grandpa!
I LOVE YOU!
Monday, December 20, 2010 @ 9:32 PM
Been a long time since i last blogged.
Spider webs all over! *
Registered for 2011's ITE.
1st choice: Asian Culinary Arts.
2nd choice: Western Culinary.
3rd choice: Pastry & Baking.
4th choice: Food & Beverages Operations.
Few more days to 2011.
Gonna study hard when 2011 strikes.
My promises to Grandpa, I gonna keep that promise.
My future is in my own hand, what i'm doing now will be what i'll be in the future.
No more playing a fool! Wasted too much youth playing around!
Time to wake up! Jiayou! :D
Wasn't in any mood the past few weeks.
Too much things happened.
Well, i'm over with it.
Decide to let go. (:
What matter is time.
Injuries from work,
Kana bang by a trolley that drop down for a shoulder-height loading bay.
Went for X-ray on saturday, there seems like a 5-cent coin dent in on my shin.
Waiting for the clinic to call, if everything's is alright, that's the best.
Worse come to worse, CASTING! ): _l_
430 since Grandpa left.
I miss you alot, Grandpa!
I LOVE YOU! <3
I hope you will not remind me of those things again.
I just want to be friends, is it so difficult?
I'm seriously sorry, i'm at fault.
Monday, October 4, 2010 @ 7:47 PM
In the chinese lunar calendar, this wednesday, 6th october.
Is your 1st death anniversary.
You left us for a year.
I guess you miss us too.
Wai Gong, i've a lot of things to tell you.
I hope that i have the chance to see you again and i"ll tell you everything!
I really miss those days we had together.
Those times when i was still a very small girl.
I stayed in your house, you grew me up.
From the kindergarten life, you'll always pick me up from school no matter rain or shine.
If it rains, you'll sacrifaces your umbrella and get yourself drenched.
You'll definitely get me whatever things that i said i wanted while on our way back home.
When you sold your house and move in together with us.
You woke up at 5.30am just to send us to school.
Even though it's a very long journey, you never fail to do so.
During mid of 2009, i didn't visit you that often.
Sometimes i even skipped that sunday just to go out with friends.
I really regret, i wanna have more time together with you.
15 years, 11 months, 10 days with you in my life.
I can never forget what happened on 16th october 2009.
Seeing you suffering and i can't do anything to help you,
i felt so useless.
When you were alive, i always asked myself this question " What will happen to me if you leave this world. ".
Now, the answer is out.
I'm still alive, but whenever i think of you.
I'll cry, missing those days with you.
Remembering what happened on 16th october, the saddest day of my life.
Whenever i looked at your things, it reminds me of you.
I really miss you alot.
Everyone of us miss you, especially Grandma.
I can see her crying herself to sleep sometimes.
You're the Greatest Grandpa!
You'll never be forgotten, you're forever living in my heart!
I LOVE YOU, GRANDPA!
I hope you're doing well now!
Thursday, September 16, 2010 @ 9:02 PM
Did a fucking stupid thing yesterday!
Fuck my life!
I shouldn't say that.
I acted too rashly and i regretted now!
If i could turn time back, i wouldn't say that.
Even though i hope for much more things but i know it won't happen.
All the best!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010 @ 9:14 PM
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY,
Mdm Noelle Tan
Mr Wilson Tay! :D
Went back Telok Kurau Secondary School yesterday for teacher's day celebration!
Actually my leave wasn't really approve.
But i didn't regret going back.
This is the last year, TKSS is celebrating teacher's day.
And it might even be the last time for me to get to see all my teachers!
Had so much fun in school, even though its just 3 hours.
TKSS will be gone next year.
I'll never forget the days i had in TKSS.
Those punishments, suspension, detention and stuffs.
Those scoldings from teachers.
Those days in principal office.
Those happy moments with friends.
Those competition in school.
I'll never forget TKSS.
It's the best school!
Telok Kurau Secondary School is a place we call home.
You grew us up.
I regret that i didn't choose to retain sec 2.
If i choose to retain sec 2, i'm still in school now.
Enjoying the last year of TKSS.
TELOK KURAU SECONDARY SCHOOL ROCKS TO THE MAX!
THANKS TEACHERS! :D
Mdm Tan! :D
Mr Tay! :D
Miss Tan! :D
Mr Raj! :D
Mdm Aishah! :D
Mdm Nurli! :D ( not sure )
Mr Rahim! :D
Photos with teachers;
Best teacher, Mdm Tan! :D
2nd best, Mr Tay! :D
Mrs Kua! :D
Miss Grace! :D
Miss Tan! :D
Mdm Nurli? :D
Mr Raj! :D
Mr Paul! :D
Mr Neelan! :D
Miss Islin! :D
Miss Feng! :D
Miss Ong! :D
Mr Lim! :D
Mr Rahim! :D
And last but now least,
Thanks principal, Mr Singh!
Thanks for giving me so many chances to stay in school.
Or else, i might be holding on to my PSLE certificate now.
I know, i'm a big headache in school.
Thanks for tolerating all those craps i did.
Thanks for giving me the chance to prove it to you that i can and i will change.
Thanks, Mr Singh! :D
a wonderful day of my life that i'll never ever forget!